is an intensely deadly trait that instinctively lives in all of us. within relationships, friendships, and family it is all around us and affects the way we approach situations, people, and so much more. i can go on and on and on about how dissatisfied i am with myself, within my physical appearance, to within myself as a person inside that i can surely improve on. but then i just have to stop myself right there & realize that i will never achieve that satisfaction to the utmost highest of my own expectation because as human beings we are never satisfied. we’re always wanting more. we all want to look a certain way that pleases ourselves or other people (to a certain extent, mind you), be a certain person, and just be happy in general. i’m not saying that it’s impossible to better myself as a person or anything but i’m only clarifying that you simply can’t always get what you want. now back to jealousy… yes, i am a jealous person. i try not to be but, i am. how much of this trait you let take over you and affect you is up to your own self and your own will.
my first semester of college, i was acquainted with a friend who had trouble with an ex-boyfriend. this guy was…crazy. cheated on her or whatever blah blah blah. well, i never looked to her as anything more than a peer that had each others backs in the HIST 1302 course. i’d gone over to her house to study with another guy who was in the same class and i guess you could say we all turned out to be friends..? it was clear to see that insecurity took over this girl’s ex boyfriend. they’d gotten back together. i received incredibly childish & immature threatening text messages from him. i’d never met the guy. it was a big mess. i’d completely cut myself off from this girl because of it. it wasn’t worth it. my intentions of being friends with this girl were misconstrued by her boyfriend. terrible.
a replay of this is happening at work. i don’t even know where to begin though. and i won’t. i’m not sure why i’m typing all of this. i just wanted to say to not let natural instincts get the best of you if it is going to ruin a perfectly good thing. it’s not worth it. i hate to see bad things come out as a result of me existing. not to sound narcissistic but i know that i play a role to this. i’m just a nice guy. i’m not trying to steal anyone’s girlfriend or ex-girlfriends, wives, or bitches or hoes. you could lose sleep if the first thing you worried about was me stealing yo girl.
on that note. buenas noches biotches. and goodnight tumblr.
ichibon sushi in Kemah
glass pipe makin’ at hippie connection.
zazu the parrot.
that girl, tina.
dance partner bianca!
some of the group
those late nights & early mornings at whataburger.
the sweetest drunk you’ll ever meet.
Worked from 11am to 5. I waited tables like I was official and made nearly $100 that I couldn’t keep! Since I’m still in training I’m not on the floor yet. Puts into perspective how much I’ll be making every other shift.
After work, took an hour drive in some RAIN with my bro tyler and that girl tiffany to a hooka joint and cultural food place. Saw the OFFICIAL Talabi Law Firm billboard on the way there. Soo official.
Had a good relaxation time. Good talks. Good laughs. Just what a few college kids need out of the everyday stresses of education and working hard!
Later that night, hit up a place called Hafez. DELICIOUS Mediterranean and various cultural foods. Love these guys. Many more nights like these to come. And more company :)
when I think about it for a little while. I only miss SOME of the things. There are a lot of things I miss about high school. Mainly just the overall atmosphere and aura..minus the drama, countless homework, and strict rules. I miss the people that you’ve been surrounded by since almost elementary. It’s a social thing. But other than that I’ll name a bunch of other things that I miss. I miss seeing all my friends all the time. Being in a classroom full of inside jokes and people you know that make you laugh. Sitting in there trying not to get caught texting with the teachers who cared. Being able to transform homework into teamwork with the people you knew.. Getting swept just cause you hadn’t in that 6 weeks and using it as an excuse to roam the school. Bein’ top dogs and getting away with all kinds of crap. Football games were pretty fun. Spirit weeks and Pep Rallies. Band practices after school..[sometimes]. I missed somewhat caring about what I wore lol. The random fights that were like breaking news every other month. Morning announcements? How about the pledge.. The teachers? That’s all I really miss.
But would I go back and do it all again? Hell nahh. All that work we had? The ridiculous rules? Set bell schedules? Nahhh, I have so much freedom at Lee College. I feel like a young adult, really. I’m just overall content I guess you could say with the community college I attend. In a couple years or less, I’ll be movin’ on to big and bad things. All is good and I’m ready.
So…again I’ll say, I miss highschool but…right now? I’m good.
This week I’ve been feelin’ like
All this college work is basically coming outta nowhere from my professors. Comin’ at me like
I’d freaked out cause I hadn’t gotten a damn job to take care of myself.
Wondering how am I gonna make it if I can’t make some paper?
Things got better though, I found a job. And got hired just after walking in. I was pretty stoked.
I just wanted to dance and fkn celebrate!
Do whatever the hell this move is…
And then to end it all off. A fun Friday night. Get together with friends and laughing out loud at the football game and McDonalds afterwards. Gotta look at the bright side and be content with what you’re blessed with.
Overall, I’m holdin’ it down.